I'm a Christian and this is my testimony
Well I definitely wasnāt expecting this to be my first blog post or even have a post so early on when I donāt even fully have my site up yet. Regardless, some events happened today that made me feel like this needed to be done.
When I was at public hockey today, it was clear that my friend Nick was acting weird. I just felt like there was something going on, but I didnāt know what and I also didnāt ask about it in case Iād make it worse. Eventually I found out what the issue was though.
So Nick makes music (which is freaking sick btw) and I ended up sending it to my cousin who also goes to pub hockey with us. Most of the video is Nick doing an absolute killer job at showing satanism in the music industry. My cousin liked the song, but he then started making comments to me that were stereotypes of Christians. Iām not going to get into them, but they didnāt bother me at the time. I was bullied a lot in school so stuff like this doesnāt seem important to me. Well it was important to Nick.
He was super upset at my cousin for saying those things about him behind his back. He for sure made it clear what the issue was. Why is this related to this post? Well because Nick made me realize something.
When my cousin was texting me the stereotypes, I said that Nick wasnāt like that and defended him, but I also wasnāt being clear that I was also a Christian. I was definitely avoiding the topic with my cousin and to be honest I donāt know why. On top of that, I realized I definitely need to take a stand next time against these types of comments. I know Nick was mad because he took the messages directly towards him, but now looking back I take them as attacks directly toward Christianity. The next time this happens, I wonāt be quiet about it and make myself clear. I am a Christian. My cousin is one of the few people who didnāt know Iām a Christian, but I feel as if everyone should know.
I just want to say thanks to Nick that even though he was very mad at my cousin, it really had a positive impact on me. He basically called me out, which is the way you have to do things with me. I know with what he sees, he probably thinks Iām like this with everyone and not just my cousin. However, Iām very open about how I believe in Jesus to my friends.
To further expand how much today has impacted my life, Iām going to share my testimony. I wrote this back in January of 2022, right before I was actually baptized. I grew up Catholic, so technically I was already baptized as a child, but I donāt believe that is actual baptism. Either way I had to write this and give it to my pastor. He was the only one who has ever read it. Iām going to put the whole thing unedited in quotes below so everyone can read it. Iām just hoping this helps other people and also gives people more of a background on me.
My Original Testimony
āBefore I had come to know God, my life was interesting. The way I used to live my life, I would always think through everything and ignore my feelings. When I would do this, things never really worked out right and I always had this guilty feeling. I didnāt know exactly why I had this guilty feeling when Iād do things, but what ended up being the case was that I was guilty because I was sinning and not accepting Jesus as my savior.
I grew up Catholic since my family is mainly Catholic. I had many issues with the Catholic church and eventually that led to me falling away from faith around 8 years old. Thatās when things just never went right and I always had bad luck. It was like I could never find peace.
Eventually out of nowhere, I got a job in the field I have a degree in after a couple years of not being able to get one. I believe this is the first event that lead to God being a part of my life again. When I got to the new job, I met Aaron. Aaron and I quickly became friends and he was kind enough to gift me a bible. As I was reading it, one day it all just kind of made sense. The feelings I was having of guilt were definitely related. The bible verse Iād use to describe this would be Romans 2, verses 14 and 15, it says āEven Gentiles, who do not have Godās written law, show that they know his law when they instinctively obey it, even without having heard it. They demonstrate that Godās law is written in their hearts, for their own conscience and thoughts either accuse them or tell them they are doing right.ā This is important to me because I have been following my feelings and they always line up with the bible and lead me the right way.
This led to me accepting Jesus as my savior and realizing that he loves all of us and sacrificed himself to save us. Ever since I have accepted this and have been living my life according to scripture, my bad luck has turned around and God has worked in many ways in my life. I now have found success at work and was able to get my own place to live in, which I thought would never be possible. The biggest thing God has done for me is healed me. One time when I went to the doctors they did some tests and determined that I was not able to have kids because of how my anatomy was, it just couldnāt support a kid and I was not able to get pregnant ever. I went back to the doctors in October of 2020, and they ran the same test and out of nowhere, things changed. My anatomy somehow fixed itself and they have no idea how, so now I am able to have kids. To me this was a miracle.
To this day God is still working in my life. I pray to God almost every day and about anything and everything. I feel like the struggles God gives me are ways to show me where I can improve and be better so I can live more like Jesus. I am just incredibly grateful for everything that God has done for me, even though I did turn away from faith for a very long time. I have never felt a peace like this in my life. Everything just makes sense now that I have a relationship with God and also now that I have read a lot of the scripture.ā
Further Details
I just want to go into further detail about why I wasnāt able to have kids. So when I had an ultrasound done, my left ovary was basically completely in the wrong spot and they almost thought I didnāt have one all together. On top of this, I had a bicornuate uterus. What this means is that my uterus is heart shaped and basically makes two sides to it. Normally, a uterus is open and has a convex curve at the top. Now imagine the top being shaped like the top of a heart <3. Yeah just not enough space for a baby to grow and my doctors said if I did get pregnant, it would just miscarriage early on every single time.
I also want to explain who Aaron is because I wrote the testimony to my pastor who knows Aaron and I. So Aaron is my boyfriend and I met him at that job I got out of nowhere. There was just something about him. Iām not sure what it was, but I had a feeling I needed to talk to this guy. I actually had a similar feeling when playing hockey with Jay when we didnāt know each other. Anyways, when I found out that I was healed, I had been dating Aaron for literally maybe 2 months. So to me itās a sign from God that Aaron is the one for me. If anyone knows me, Iām terrified of being pregnant. I donāt dislike kids, itās literally just like the act of being pregnant with someone else inside you. Just freaks me out. But none of this matters. God calls us to do certain things and I donāt see how clearer this can be. So Iām going to do it anyways even though I am absolutely terrified.
Thanks for reading this long post, but I feel like this stuff had to be said. I was thinking of making a video about it, but I usually talk too fast and Iām hard to understand. I just donāt even realize Iām doing it.
-Parker-
Obligatory pic of me and Aaron
